Self-Esteem. It's a funny, terrifying, important, fascinating, judgmental little thing. Never once in my life have I ever felt the need to do something because somebody asked me to or because of someones opinion of me. Peer Pressure? I honestly couldn't tell you what it feels like. But lately I've felt compelled to become someone different. I've asked myself "What if I'm missing out on something? Why can't I be completely care-free like every other teenager?" Faith is my reason for most of the way I live, and I do have my faults, but why does it have to be so hard for people like me, people who have morals, who have a reason, and who just appear to be different to just be accepted by society? Plenty of kids say their normal, and plenty of kids say they're the polar opposite and don't fit in, which splits society into two groups: The Average and The Misfits.
The Average:
Those kids who seem to have everything going for them. They fit in, have friends, and people just understand them. They do what they want and what others expect of them. They definitely have their difficulties in life, but it's not usually the end of the world. Their comfort eventually comes back. They are The Majority.
The Misfits:
The other group who claims they don't fit in anywhere, that they're not like the average. Ironically, they're usually found in large posses looking and acting "strange" to the average. Are they really that alone with all the others surrounding them?
Where do I fit into? Good question. That's why I'm writing this. I have a good life, I'm loved. But can I say that I act like everyone else? Not really. I have a different set of boundaries than other people seem to expect from me. I don't claim to be alone or to be "different," but sometimes it's hard to find people who understand who I am. I guess I'm just a one of the few who doesn't fit into society. With all of the new experiences coming up, I just wish to find people to surround myself with that will help make me a better person.
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