Clarity

Lately life has just been a blur. Well, it has been for a while now. But this week has been different; I've seen everything more clearly. On Tuesday I was driving home from the band concert and couldn't take my eyes off the tree tops. The precision of the branches was fantastic. I could not only see clearly, but could feel the wind brushing every part of my body, could hear the birds and the crickets singing. I felt fully alive for the first time in a long time. And then today I was walking to my car and saw a dragon fly. It was a beautiful amber color and moved so smoothly. Now that probably sounds super weird, but it made me notice how much of God's creation I've been taking for granted. Then feeling these remind me of who I was three years ago, and it almost makes me want to go back. I want to be completely clear and alive!

"Don't just walk into the wind with your mouth open expecting it to do all the work."

-Mark Z.

That Feeling

Have you ever felt the worst feeling in the world?

Well it starts out with a "pang," and you can't breathe.

And then there's the feeling at the base of your sternum and in your stomach; you want to cry, scream, hit- anything to make it go away. You can't talk because of the lump in your throat.

Then you go numb. Your arms, legs, head; all feeling is gone.

To sum it up, that's pain.

Everyone has a different cure to try to counteract the pain.

For me, I like to drive to places I've never been.

I drive fast hoping to focus on something else when really, there's no way to get rid of it.

It's been said that "Time heals all pain," but in reality it only stifles it.

You may not feel anything for awhile, but at one moment everything will flood back.

And that pain will be even worse than you could have ever imagined.

Where's the love you need to feel at that moment?